|Note: Not my scale or feet.|
I don't want to be obsessed with the number of pounds that I weigh. I don't want to start off every single day feeling like a failure or even feeling like a success due to the number the scale flashes at me. The value I place on my life should not be contingent upon my weight.
This morning when I stepped on the scale, I felt very pleased when I saw 255.6 lbs. A happy dance ensued and I found myself wondering what Thursday's number was going to end up being. Yes, this is a great way to start out my day. But what if I wasn't down 1.8 lbs? What if I'd gained it? Then my Saturday would have been started on a sour note. I'm not saying that I should be ignoring my weight. I do want to lose it for health reasons and yes vanity reasons as well. Ultimately I want my confidence/self worth to be firmly in place and have the rest just be details.
Here's what I want:
- To be happy.
- To love myself in every body shape I may have.
- To have real confidence.
- Balance between my mental and physical health.
The scale is going to have to be placed on a shelf. Being mentally healthy is just as important as being physically healthy.